Hurtful
Twists and turns
my heart gets thrown
thrashed and fallen
broken on the ground
My feelings cast
away like a tattered caot
nothing to hide
my feeling inside
I feel the pain
seeping up through my skin
my insides hurt
from you not loving me
I want to erase you
from my memory
from my life
and start anew
I love you so much
my heart bleeds
I cry
no way to hide
No way to get away
nowhere to run to
nothing to do
but sit and hurt.
Admit It!
I thought of you the other day
I thought
I would burst
My heart out of my chest
my brain out of my skull
your words tease me
and I think
you love me
you just can't admit it
so niether will I.
Why?
Sitting here thinking
of your face
The world keeps spining and I'm in the middle
standing on my head to impress you
But I don't impress
you
I'm not physically perfect, so I have no chance
I'm just not enough for you
Your big blue eyes, hide your
lies
of feelings you can't explain
Feelings for me you wont admit
You don't, you can't, you've been hurt before
by
girls, they tease and abuse you
leading you on a string, until all you know is pain
But I am the answer to all of
your pain
I could be, if you let me, if you'd try
I maybe the one, the one you need
What would they say? If you
accepted me?
for who I am? For what I may become?
And all the world could see, would you be embarrassed of me?
Those
faceless people who don't even matter
Do they know you? Do you know them?
Why so worried? Why care? Why bother?
You
shouldn't, but I do, I care for you!
Recognize
If I were to see you today
would you recognize me
would I recognize you
With no confidence to speak of
and
a life that has changed
maybe not always for the best
But I am still me
without you
And I always will be
I
never needed you
even when I thought I did
It was a trick
my mind was playing on me
And I fell for it!
Kiss Me
Kiss
me again
and I'll call you a king
I'll tell you you're best
I'll be your everything
I love you!
I Never Deserved You
Tried to get through
to you
I tried to let you know
how much I love you
I always let it show
You gave me a chance
and I fucked
it up
I don't deserve you
I never did
He Went Away
He went away
without a word
it wasn't his fault
he didn't know
he
had no time for goodbyes
He went away
while I was out
to a place
for his punishment
my biggest fear furfilled
I
hope he learns
what is right
what not to do
so this doesn't happen again
so he wont have to leave again
I
love him so
but he went away
he'll be back
and I'll tell him
but he won't care
he never does
Without
Love without reason
thoughts unmentionable
forever
and ever
ungodly, unjust
a future forseen
past long forgotten
life ahead
take me or kill me
don't
leave me to cry
slowly and painfully
I'll die inside
I Notice
I notice the
way you comb your hair
and the crisp clean clothes you wear
I notice when you look at me
I notice when you stare
I
notice when your sweet to me
and when your very mean
I notice when your happy and sad
I notice when your obscene
I
notice when your around
and when your not there
I notice when your at home
I notice when your here
I notice
everything about you
all your feelings all your fears
Why don't you notice me
maybe I should dissappear
Pieces of Heart
Wanna search
search my heart
for the missing piece of yours
I took it
and hid it
locked it up with
a key
I'll keep it with me
eternally
forever and ever
you'll never find
the piece I took
It makes you
bleed
I laugh and laugh
I don't feel like that
your heartfelt feelings
they mean nothing to me
I can't
wait to never see you again
to be out of your mind
but I'll keep you with me
to prove to myself
I hurt you!
Always
My life is falling apart
Everything I know and Everything I love is distrupted
I
am faling in shambles onto the floor
Someone please pick me up
I need some help
before I do something more to
hurt myself
before I die by my own hands
bloody, broken, and bruised
I love him more than life itself
and
I never want to give up the fight
for his love, his life, his pride and his future
He is my all, he is my everything
I
can't live without him
he is my best friend
and I love him so much
I always will
forever and always
I will
love him
no matter how many wrongs
I will love him
ALWAYS!
