Pretending
My hearts in pieces
I lie to myself
pretending I am over
him
My best friend
I cry myself to sleep
Lost
Crying tears of endless
shame
A blade runs slowly across my wrist
a jet of pure red flowing blood
a release of aniety built up
The
blood it trickles
staining the rug where it has fallen
red forever telling the tale
of a girl who felt she had nowhere
to turn
Her life in shamblems
crumbling all around her
parents who dont seem to care
no friend to speak of
She
feels alone
She is alone
Alone and Lost
Inside her own Head
Without
Love without reason
thoughts unmentionable
forever and ever
ungodly, unjust
a future forseen
past
long forgotten
life ahead
take me or kill me
don't leave me to cry
slowly and painfully
I'll die inside
I
Want to Hate Him
I want to die
I want to cry
But I can’t
My tears have dried up
He’ll never love me
No
matter what I do
I can’t make him love me
I want to hate him too
But I don’t
I can’t
I
never will
No matter what he says
Or what he does
I’ll never hate him
I’m in love
In love
with my best friend
Who can’t see past skin
To the me inside
Who loves him
He’ll never love me
No matter what I do
I can’t make him love me
I want to hate him too
I want to hate him
I want to
hate him
Why can’t I hate him?
Is it because of his eyes?
Or the way he makes me laugh?
Is it because
of his honesty?
Is it all the lies?
He makes me feel worthless
Like I’ll never be
The one he wants
Like
he could never love me
Everything I love
He embodies
I love him more
than anybody
I love him more
Than
he could possibly know
He won’t give me a chance
To let my feeling show
My life sucks
I need to get
away from this place
Away from it all
So I no longer have to look at his face
His big blue eyes
That I fall
into so deep
I’m gonna take the fall
It’s gonna be steep
I’m gonna go
Far away
I’ll
never see him again
It has to be this way
He’ll never love me
No matter what I do
I can’t make
him love me
I want to hate him too
Desertion
I feel horrible
I feel deserted
I
don't like this feeling
It's hard for me
I'm scared of what will happen
When you leave me for good
I'll
miss you forever
I hurt even longer
Truth Be Told
truth be told
I'm not over you
I tellyou I am
but I lie
You believe me
when
I say
we're the best of friends
another lie I tell you
Obsessive compulsive
habitual liar
that's what I
am
my heart screams true
I had my chance
but blew it that day
that day I never said
I love you
And
now you've moved on
to someone less like me
a total oppisette
in every way
A girl I'm told you love
you
never loved me anyway
So go on and take her
make her fall
I'll be waiting
watching it all
And now
I see your gorges eyes
shining bright and blue
searching my face
wondering what I'll do
Tell you now
or
keep me waiting
macho physic
why are you hiding
I know you want me
like I want you
your to scared to tell
me
and I you
we had our chance
we'll always look back
think about what I should have said
you'll love me
someday
Someday we'll be old
in love
and together
no one could tear me away
I love you
I know I
do
you love me too
We'll be married
fate never fails
we're here for a reason
that reason is us.
Someone
I want to be loved by someone
love me for me
I'm not
perfect, I know
I want a man to love
I know what love is
Not just anybody
Someone who can listen
Someone
to be close to
Someone to share my thoughts with
I want my need furfilled
Not fake in any way
Really, truelly,
special love
Hurt
Totally infatuated
In love
so deep
I try to forget you
I cry myself to sleep
We hurt each other so much
Why do I try?
I hurt
you so bad
I wish I could die!
You hurt me too
In so many ways
You know you have
It puts me in a craze
I’ve shared so much
You know it all
You always catch me
Before I fall
Bring me back up
Only
to push me back down
I want to get away from you
Away from this town
So many memories
I can’t forget
you
I’ve tried so hard
Your everything to me
I love you…
